Below, poems, some of which may have appeared in
Secrets from the Orange Couch, grain, Fiddlehead, Nexus Magazine,
blue buffalo, Dandelion, and others ….
The accordian sways
like a drunken toy boat
out of happiness
In the coffee shops
steam rises and condenses
like toy piano notes
Cliche of sadness -
the rain punctuated with
a wood block’s clap laugh
The kazoo blues - hey
hows the weather New Orleans
- slate grey, cobble blue
Chiming melody
the breaking glass and leaves
on coldening air
Broken toy piano -
gypsy, sanctify the blues
play your violin
The xylophone rain
glass and curb insomnia
- Japanese rag-time
As the heart folds in
the notes fall still, air contracts
- snow in early spring.
The agent specialized.
3 locations only- one
for the spring, one
for the fall, and one
for the winter. Even so
it was futile.
In Spring he sent them to countries
as monochrome as lilacs.
They did not return, but slept
held in the still tightly clenched air.
In the fall he thought only of tropical birds
Minha and Toucan. All the tourists returned
in their garish shirts, pining for concrete and work.
The winter made him blind as white
and he sent them to live behind curtains.
Like Moses he could not go himself
and he muttered “this varicose heart is confused.”
He said to me, “I’m sorry, sir, we specialize
in economy.” “That’s alright,” I replied
“We’re off to a land of dogs.
“Ah, I know,” he said, “you reek of sleep,
and the white veil is ending your life.”
I am waving, I am waving
take a picture.
Some form of garbage assisting the
fine woof of the warped loom
in the strangled last half of the
present first century after the
death of god.
This is the Tokyo night, never
dark this, light that tin
and neon abstraction of pleasure
that shouts out loud
the promise of dearth.
Here, we are prayer, supplicant
wet dreams pulsing the fore
ground, pulsing the back
plane of our auditory canals
wishing our pants off.
Spring is the promise of birth,
world this new, this Tokyo
flash springing wholly formed
from the split head of the
ass end of the world.
This is Las Vegas of the mind,
prayerful as chance itself.
Some, the form of naked arms
assume the ships wood prow shape
sail in gaudy waves a sea
hot pants, this last parade
on our way to prosperity
where we will, no doubt,
be better dressed. The colourful
way we hear no evil.
Dish full garbage, hors
d’oeuvre, spat up from
the lecterns of centenarian
fish mongers, hair stylists to
the flimsy shade of hate.
The daily papers are wrapped
in the dearth of our collective senses,
this fruit, this lush, this
darkest breath, god�s death
our pleasure fresh
as birth.
The old he-goat sits
bent to his table
almost double
protecting his head
from the falling sky
but glowering around
curious, full of animousity.
You’d think he was eating tin.
Tenderness
in the way he eats
his tin, bent there between
the fingers of the world
in his carapace of black
leather jacket & bandana
shirt open well below the neck.
Hair and sweat.
Old he-goat, long bangle from his ear.
1. It is always like this.
Beginings that we see.
Our anticipation! Like antena
tuned to “the everlasting spring
of amnesia” we turn.
We don’t anticipate the end.
It is difficult even
to imagine end.
Where to begin.
Silence.
2. Tried to live by the sea
live in the heart throb
die and be reborn, phoenix like.
But today itself is exile.
The sea is made to grass
cold and thrashing insomnia.
A minor painter stops
the hand of time.
Silence.
3. Our bodies are the index
of our courage.
If we put them in boxes
like ornaments for trees
4. The tide held so long from moving out.
The atrophied arm of the moon, invaded
and now photographed like surgery,
wakes to the common need of muscles
(muscle) and the malls are overwhelmed,
parking lots and pavement undulate
as the moon pulls and pushes out.
Silence.
5. In the morning, we did not imagine the future.
It happened. Do you speak the thought to its conclusion.
Flotsam, jetsam, beyond the next nowable moment.
The eventuality of rest
hope for a happy ending.
Silence.
I overhear
tides of myself all night in it.
Robert Duncan
stand and sway, head crookd
eyes crookd into the sea
with a rhythm that betrays
the leap and the fall of the heart
in so close a time
to the time of the breath of water
relentless at the back of the throat
winding gently ‘round the tongue
with a sweet whisper of deep
blue, in the eye, blue is the color
of blood in the heart, dark
dark blue, the light at the bottom
of the sea of childhood
into the sea again,
with every sense, into the sea.
in favour of doing the dishes are:
the high cost of living
raising your breath
birds slowly follow
the sound of flowing water
a memory of sea or river
the simplest form of prayer
things everywhere are breaking
at the very least chipped
at the lip, on the rim
other levels of order are disuaded
because your clear-sightedness
will only lead to a bad rash
or the first murmur of the revolution
the dishes are dirty
and it’s dark outside
the certain knowledge that
you must wake and pass
through the kitchen
the hope that you will wake and again pass
between the off aqua walls of the kitchen on
an early morning to the sound of dripping
in sinks all over Canada
II.
the rich are getting richer
you aren’t rich, the poor
must do their dishes
themselves; better to do
dishes than to do the poor
the beautiful woman
your desire, her hunger
and the resulting dirty dishes
your mother told you
and your mother deserves
a little effort on your part
and reasons enough for living
July 22, 1992
After Rimbaud
dark hands the summer tanned
like city beef, hung up-side down,
have dipped into the moon
their long and sticky fingers,
traded in diamonds,
put in our sockets like eyes;
they tossed golden flowers
into a pot to melt,
hands descanting poisons.
what dream has held them,
as they hold the precious stones
of heavy eyeless babies;
lulled
by a sun drunk on tar,
they bend and bend us
hands that do no harm
more fatal than machines.
Peel the eye like an egg
put the shell into your pocket.
And slip.
What’s common to the living
(and what goes on living)
is the labor that conditions
the quality of knowing.
To know the substance of a thing
scrub the dirt off from the skin,
burrow, tunnel further in
until the water seeps upÑ swim.
In the water, as the wind skins
the flesh and the sheath on the eyes
you see with the eyes of another
on the bank or drowning.
As your eyes flow out before you
history has no high pointsÑ swim.
I saw his mouth spread openÑ and I saw
with his eyes spread open what I saw
& the water caving in around as all.
Beneath the shell of the eye is an empty germ.
Around the germ is the muck, a rain
of stray photons, admire, our last
breath belabored escaping the shell
what precedes what we see?
what precedes seeing, see?
what revelation
of the sacred
in the primitve speech of desire
what sacred desire
in the primitve revelations
of speech
a revelation
of sacred speech
in primitive desire
and so many desires
for a revelation of the sacred
in primitive speeches
propagate diversions
to their full, lush territ’ry.
plant therein the seeds of the real,
but give them for water veiled whispers.
the soil is the common confusion
of our language; together
we will tend the rows
and keep from confusion, confusion.
a variegated old growth,
dank and fertile,
grows
The river is crowded with men wading in the mud, sitting on the rocks.
The fish are long down river. They are holding a political meeting.
All the anglers at repose all the fish on a boycott of the struggle -
erosion? Water creatures and creatures on land. Water and other matter
Once relations were easy.
Men with baseball caps and rubber waders.
A simple difference of opinion.
Not much noise but the quiet movement of the river into river.
And a single transparent line between a man and a fish - water.
The intentions, different wills, like a psyche in its contradictions,
one direction composed of many others, eddies and cross currents
reduced in gills and raised to the height of the human body on the bank,
in the body in the end, to come again to weather.
Young men in bandanas, listening to walkmen, at the bank in converse All Stars
are driving the fish into deeper waters.
I am no enthusiast for fishing. My interest’s in the water.
The meeting’s in full swing; the vote is taken. The fish
are throwing in their lot with all the women in the shallows,
fully extended, bathing. The world was once all covered in water.
No one even mentioned the air. What about the creatures of the air.
dumb bodies
plain speaking
the wooden instrument
is invested with the faith
of the maker in its language
brass speaks of the obvious
strength and durance
of a metal tongue
the bow and the reed
are the endless pull
of our most persistant memory
cellos moan hollowed out
and the pipes stream a sadness
low hum of our mother’s blood,
slung breath as she delivered us our cry, punctuating
dumb bodies
plain speaking
a sky as red as that and trees
without the benefit of seasons
the sky a red red sea
and Junes pass by like blue
over an orchard, the trees
accompanied by men, bent to daily labour.
millstone round the neck, turning
turning, their seed is the remedy
against the passing and descending
of the grey in the future
of the red in the rotten apple
rouged or blushing the air breathing heavy
and the trees without the benefit of seasons
without the benefit of rest, in the company of men
for Robert Creely
Always a scheme
at the heart of the thing
(the heart, effusive thing)
never heart enough
for the necessary cruelties
reason nor rhyme
neither sufficient cause
for success, or light of day
or the stretched out canvas
of a yearning heart
reasoning ceaselessly
beyond its means
beyond its meager
reservoir of cruelty
scheming a stretched out
hand, caressing
the unfolding horizon
of the future
that yearning rolls into
ceaselessly.
The man across the room,
eyes already empty of beseeching
is drinking himself to death.
“I lost my wife.”
He is now a shallow bowl
he pours himself into
and out of which he spills.
He is sentenced to emptiness.
The Inuit have lost their sense on direction
since we moved them off the very face
of the compass.
I think he’s the same man who,
two years ago, told me he walked all night in his socks
on streets then covered in ice.
He had on a bright yellow jacket
that immersed him in happiness.
He was drowning.
He longs for his stolen boots.
copyright 2004, Mark Washeim, All rights reserved.